The heaviness in my eyes.

It never helped that through all the pain I just kept writing. I thought maybe if I got it all down I would finally have an outlet for my pain. it was just a lie it never felt better it never changed.These times are so bad that I can't even think about dreaming for a better time I just keep concentrating on the worst aspects of my life the pain that I never can forgive the memories that haunt me from break until dawn. Why why is this they way I am living why can't I change until nothing but the pain leaves why can't I find the way back to the things I want most. Why do I stop I should keep moving on like nothing can get in my way I should keep running until the everything melts away I should join the fight stop the war. In nothing do I find solice in nothing do I find peace. The world knows my pain and it won't take it away. This sucks so much that I can't even think about it. I am tired but the heaviness of my eyes won't forgive me. The heaviness in my eyes won't let me fall asleep.